Neil Young

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He plays the acoustic six-string, he has lyrics that actually mean something, is a total Indie-rocker, and most of all; he comes from the only new world that is worth dying for: Canada. If only the Europeans landed there, and were less greedy; we might still have some of that ancient Mayan/Aztec culture, maybe they'd still have a nation. Imagine what great technologies we could have learned if we didn't go slaughter them all... but I guess socialists came in too late for that. Sigh- I wish I lived in my dream world, now I have to live in this crappy one.

And it's so depressing, so awfully sad that everything I do is really futile. I'm thinking of writing something again, called "Don't You F*cking Die!", a deep philosophic story of why it is so important to believe that humanity will never die out. Because, if it does, all we do is for nothing. Really, every effort you put into society, is short term, and will hardly be remembered for long after your death. The movie "dead poets' society" made me think about the subject more, carpe diem, and place your name in the history books. After all, if we are not remembered, or do not contribute to something eternal, why do we live? For the fun of living?
Come on, life sucks big time, the few joys we come across hardly make up for the intense misery we are confronted with every day. The highest goal in a man's life isn't happiness, as I've said earlier, it is being remembered. "Write a book!" I hear you think, but all those souls that tried to be remembered for eternity by writing books are long forgotten, and hardly known in the first place. Millions of books are rotting away in large silos, waiting for a reader that will never come, insignificant in the masses of souls, all crying out to be heard while they slowly die away. No, writing a book isn't enough, not by a long shot, one must move mountains, or at least civilizations to be remembered for all eternity -or until humanity finally ceases to be.

I think the above is the only reason I can think of to believe in a God, or at least an afterlife. It breaks my heart that I don't believe in such things, for that matter, I wish I was a simple-minded Catholic monk. Life is so easy for the idiots that walk it; the great minds are the ones in real pain. The fortresses among the masses, philosophizing and contemplating, are the ones that reach this level of awareness, but what a painful truth it is.

More inconvenient than the truth -which isn't that true after all- which Al Gore told us, it is a sad realization. My life is going to end, and I'm afraid so will all of humanity. Think about it: this planet will eventually be uninhabitable or be destroyed by the last breath of our so worshiped supernova. Where would we go if we saw it coming? The moon is still too close, or we should find a way to propel it, with big nuclear thrusters or whatever. But then, where would we get new resources if this planet is depleted? Would humanity be organized enough, globally, to even discuss such things by the time it is necessary? I don't believe humanity is eternal.
So all we can do, is try to be happy, be meaningful and support next generations. Is that satisfying? I think not, I fear the end of humanity more than my own death, because that would ultimately make my existence, and that of every being ever lived futile, and meaningless. I want to put my stamp on humanity, contribute to her; but what use is writing a book when no one will read it after a thousand years, what use is being a blood donor when the person you save will eventually die anyway, what use is living, if you can't live for ever? It is useless, life isn't a circle, sir Elton John, it is a spiral, one that ends.

I honestly wish there was more significant proof of a Deity, or at least an afterlife, but there isn't, and hoping for the impossible is childish.

But that is the only bit of light that I see in this dark world, children. Their life's, so simple, yet so full of fantasy, meaning, and learning. The growth, spontaneousness and imagination of children is worth living for. Enabling their happy childhood is number one on my list of things to live for, more important than being meaningful or happy.

Neil Young, my favorite singer, "Helpless"